Since my shipment of Jelly Babies has yet to arrive, I have to settle for thse instead. I’m looking on the positive side because they’re Halloween - aka the best holiday - themed.
Also I’m totally up for sharing because I’m trying to be less greedy but it’s like a limited time only because my self-control regarding candy sucks.
I’m totally skeptical about this best holiday business… there’s not even food.
I’d like that lots. Going to Homecoming with you. I was actually going to ask you.
But I’d like it better if we picked something we both wanted to try for after. I know those were a big deal for you, with Lexi and stuff. I shouldn’t have implied it was less because we didn’t talk it out explicitly. I can be really bad at talking sometimes. You’re right. We’re safe together. I forgot that for a little bit. I do trust you. I want to show you that.
You were? My bad for stealing your thunder… sorry not sorry.
…Do you not want to try that?
I didn’t mean it like that. But I get how it sounded like that. I think it’s been a really long time since I submitted like that - was someone’s sub - not in an exam. Or you know… in a punishment. And except for once last easter, I always asked. So I knew what I was getting into. And it’s not shameful, but it’s always been private at least while I’m figuring it out.
And, I dunno, just two main people I did that for. They didn’t want me anymore. And it’d be super shitty if you didn’t want me anymore. Like I don’t know what I’d do. Which now I feel kinda silly saying, now that it’s out there. Ignore me.
Of course I’d still— it’s not like that. You definitely don’t have to worry about that.
Look, how about… how about you come to Homecoming with me and then afterwards we can do whatever you want? I’ve opened myself to you like that before, less directly but call it what you want. I don’t want to be afraid of this anymore and I trust you, Jason. Completely. I wasn’t super pleased with you brushing those other times over like they weren’t a big deal, it’s not exactly easy for me either… but we’re safe and if you need me to remind you of that by being vulnerable first then I totally can.
Such a good visual. And I don’t even know what she looks like.
And thanks. Yeah I know wouldn’t do anything. You always got me. I’m sorry for being weird. I think it was just the idea of kneeling or the kneeling outside really without expecting it. Like if it’s just you and me it doesn’t seem nerve wracking, but that felt like not only you and me you know? And I couldn’t tell how you said it because sometimes texts are dumb. It was a bad day for me too, so I was extra weird. Basically I’m sorry for making it a thing when it wasn’t. You’re def my best bro. If like I’m allowed to have a girl as a bro.
I’m totally a bro.
Good, cool. I didn’t want it to be like, a thing. I guess I kinda felt like you don’t trust me or whatever. I can see it though, about the being outside my room thing but I mean, is that really such a big deal? If someone saw you? It’s not like kneeling is a bad thing. You’re totally allowed to explore that side of yourself, it’s not shameful.
Oh well that’s a way better reason to run instead of the pool. I feel like I might have to start morning runs instead. If you wanted company one morning. Unless that will cramp your style with coffee girl. But we could always be a team.
Pshh, I was not debating that at all. Totally the hottest. I like this idea for the balloons. But now I’m a little worried you’re just going to break them on me and get me all wet.
Teaming up with coffee girl… that is an awesome visual.
It’s like you’re in my brain Jaybeebee… Wet tshirt dem abs. The cheerleaders would like it. For the cheerleaders Jason.
Speaking of my brain though. I’m sorry for the other day, you know, about my suggestion for today. I guess I didn’t think it was a super big deal cause its only us. I mean, yeah we’ve never done it with such a narrow definition but it’s not like we haven’t at all. I don’t think I even thought about it like that. You’re totes my best bro, I wasn’t going to do anything, like… bad.
We should hit he pool on those mornings. Less stress on your foot and still a good workout. But there is always room for ice cream. We need to find one of those contests where is like eat a giant sundae in an hour and then it’s free. But now now.
I’m glad you’re doing better. We need you to hup our cheerleader pretty factor for powder puff. Though I think Mike, Manny and I rock the balloon boobs pretty well.
Yeah but the pool is not in town. I guess I just miss my usual route, also the girl that works in the coffee place in the morning is super cute. Excellent at hot chocolate, like, normal hot chocolate. We would totally dominate at those type of contests. Especially if it was ice cream… the brain freeze though.
Everyone knows I’m the hottest dude on the team, padded up or in a skirt, my ass is tight. Also I think you should fill the balloons with water… for a more accurate bounce-age.
Ugh you know I’d say I’m too full but there is something about finishing a whole pizza on your own that gives me a great sense of accomplishment.
Okay but if you want to move to another room you’re going to have to carry me. How is the ankle by the way?
Move? Wow, I totally didn’t even know you spoke another language.
It’s good. Aches a little after practice or days like today where I run in the morning because I won’t have practice but only for a little. It’s way better. But I’m still not going to carry you… I can’t even carry me. Unless it is to the freezer for ice cream. Think we could handle ice cream?
Text: Lets order in though?
Text: She does like me the best.
Text: I think she likes all of us too though.
Text: Totes. Do you have any candy corn we could put in them?
Text: Duh, I’ve been into town two times now. Of course I have candy corn.
Text: The regular kind of the pumpkin shaped kind?
Text: Speaking of pumpkins, the Sunday after we should grab some to carve.